Chapbook's done!

The chapbook is done! I'll be selling them for $2 a piece until this Sunday when I move to Bowling Green (although I'll leave some with my sisters in case anyone would like to have one after I move).

Front and back covers (designed by my sister Courtney):

It's been a long, long time

One.) Two weeks until Dennis returns from Germany. It'll be really nice to see him again.

Two.) I have one more poem that I'm in the middle of writing/revising until my chapbook is finished. SO CLOSE. I have the beginning and the end of the poem. I just need the middle. This type of thing seems to happen a lot when I write. Always missing the middle.

Three.) My mum took me shopping yesterday for things I need for my new apartment since I'm poor. And while we were at Target, she bought me a dress! So here it is (as well as my new hair color). My sister Courtney called this my "teacher dress."

The feeling of turning into someone else

I finished reading No Impact Man today and got restless after all that sitting around. Sooo I played around with some new/old pieces of clothing.

I've been recently trying to play with layering (although I haven't been able to too much due to the heat). It's funny the things you can do with fashion that you've never even thought of doing before until you see it on someone else (like wearing a skirt under a dress that sort of acts as a petticoat).

Hat- Target, Pleated dress- yesstyle.com, Floral skirt- thrifted, Necklace- Wal Mart, Oxfords- thrifted

I've also been trying to find more professional clothing, for two reasons: 1. To look less like a fifteen-year-old, 2. To look more like a professor (when I start teaching in a month)

Blazer- JCPenney, 3/4 sleeve shirt- thrifted, Skinny jeans- Macy's, Heels- Deb

I've also been all about really simple outfits. I tend to like them better than over-complicated outfits with a billion accessories.

Striped shirt- yesstyle.com, Capris- Target?, Necklace- Wal Mart, Brown flats- thrifted

I am also really happy that I found these shorts. They're suuuuuper comfy and good for summer or lounging around.

Shirt- Wal Mart (men's cropped), Necklace- H&M, Shorts- JCPenney, Black flats- thrifted

Side note: I'm almost finished with my summer chapbook! I need to buckle down and sit with it for a few hours tomorrow to make all of the final revisions. Then, I just have to collaborate with my sister in designing it and get them printed. I'm excited/I hope everyone likes it!

Side side note: Just ordered these (in the cafe creme color). http://us.asos.com/ASOS-ASOS-Tailored-Low-Slung-Mans-Peg-Leg-Pant/uo94s/?iid=1249704&MID=35718&affid=2134&siteID=0RpXOIXA500-1Br45Pw_DtfP8.bHZLxI3g&r=1&mk=VOID&mporgp=L2NvdW50cnlpZC8xL0FTT1MvQVNPUy1UYWlsb3JlZC1Mb3ctU2x1bmctTWFucy1QZWctTGVnLVRyb3VzZXIvUHJvZC8. Super pumped.

Yes yes yes

One of the best conversations I've had all year. Unconditionally and unabashedly happy right now. :))))

On a side note, my hair has turned into an interesting color during its fading process.

More heat than light

I've been updating a lot lately. I can't bring myself to do much of anything in this 100 degree weather. It's also been extremely difficult to keep up with my appearance when I'm swimming in my own sweat all the time. But, I did manage to look semi-decent today with a new dress. Hope you're all finding ways to stay cool.

Pleated dress- yesstyle.com, Oxford shoes- thrifted

Shedding

It's interesting the things you discover about yourself after you force yourself to shed away a few layers. All that build-up has been holding me down. I feel like I finally have some clarity. Does it feel good? No. But it doesn't feel bad either.

Change is coming. I hope I'm ready.

Jenny Holzer

July 18, 2011

Everything is coming to me all at once.

Not to say that there is any clarity in it but rather, I am aware of it and feel it all inside me like too much air.

Ultimately, I'm left with one question. Do I choose the option that is complex, beautiful, ugly and transient? Or do I choose the option with burgeoning possibilities, skepticism, new enthusiasm and potential permanence?

I fear I want too much all the time. Letting go is hard.